I’ve talked a lot about what it’s like from a serviceman/servicewoman’s point of view, but not necessarily a spouse’s or family member’s. This perspective is a lot different.
Watching them leave is so hard, and it seems much harder for you. You worry when they tell you where they’ll be stationed next. You worry about their training and deploying. It’s hard seeing other people have their families together for holidays whenever you don’t have that. It’s hard not having them right there when you need them- having them there to comfort you during bad situations. It’s hard not knowing when you’ll hear their voice again.
However, it’s great that you have someone to be so proud of. You have someone who would risk it all for their country, and someone who is stronger than you can imagine. There’s nothing truly quite like it.